I read a few other dolls telling their own story on the boards and it really helped me follow through with my decision to leave behind my Youtube channel and take a break to focus on myself.

For 6 years I made videos on Youtube (under my name: Jasmine Yeung) and I finally made up my mind to leave cleanly last week. It was a hard decision to make, but I thought I owed an explanation to the viewers that still watched my videos.

Throughout most of my teenage years I put up with bullying and rude comments both in real life and online simply by having thick skin and pretending that it didn't bother me, but I fell into a cycle of pretending that things didn't bother me and ended up pushing people away. I had begun to hole myself up and stop socialising with my friends and sharing my feelings with others.

I also began neglecting my health in my late teens because of the comments I received regarding my weight - how 'fat' or 'bloated' my face would look on camera. I was even hospitalised with sepsis as my immune system became increasingly weaker.

I couldn't even be truthful when asked if the demeaning comments bothered me because for some strange reason, if Youtubers can't take criticism on their physical appearance, sexual comments and racial slurs - according to keyboard warriors - we should just quit.

Going to university made a huge difference for me. The community was so much more open than what I had been used to. I started dancing and performing again, I travelled more, and I learnt to treasure a few close friends more than a group of acquaintances. I cut out all the toxic people in my life too.

A bit more than half a year ago, I decided that I would change and I really do think I've managed to reach my goal now.

In the future, when I return to making videos - only if it's something I still enjoy - I want to be able to share happiness with the world instead of a smile that I was forced to wear because society judged me when I didn't. I'm not ashamed of the fact that I was a 'Youtube Girl', or my label as a 'beauty guru' and I treasure my experience, but I'm happy with where I am now more than I have been in a while and I'm glad I finally quit the community that was sucking my confidence from me.