im sure no one gets on here anymore but this used to be my favorite website to go to just to talk to people back in the day . growing up with no friends and little family to talk to or be close to this was literaly my ony escape from reality and pretending to be the popular girl for once who had friends and everyone looked up to , this way the one place i could be myself and explore my personality .

things with me havent been great over the years since i left this site ,

one of them being that as of last year my grandma who was i close to p***ed away .

and two other people in the same year p***ed as well which has been nothing short of heart wrenching.  

then strugging with depression and anxiety hasnt been a big help with me for alll my life 

whenever things got bad i would isolate and not want to talk to anyone for fear of judgement .

and then if i did talk i felt like i did it too much so again i would isolate because i was always told i was too much .  i only had people in my life who i tried to trust or get close to always leave me .

whether of my own doing or they just seen no point in talking to me anymore , which ever it was it always continued to leave me broken and alone everytime . so for years and years i never talked to girls guys or anyone because i just didnt care anymore because it always left me alone .

i had some luck if you want to say that but it always turned out to be people using me for their own gain and power over me so again i was left alone with people in my life who just didnt get or ever asked . 

shortly after and even before my grams p***ed i was heavily suiciidal and still am that way 

having never been to thereapy because of a family who never seemed to be excepting of it is now 

so for since my grams p***ed but im waiting for it to become too much for them to pay for so we wil see how long this all last .

but yeah thats pretty much my story if anyone still cares on this site .

hope your all doing well .

peace .