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Lol so it took a whole part for someone to notice i changed it ^^

84.

I told Levi I had feelings for her... And she says she has the dokis for me too. (But I don't believe her because no one's ever returned my feelings in the rare cases that I like someone)

Why do I live on the other side of the world...

84 wow Rare....you really do love her?

*in opera voice* Me wish you a merry christmas. me wishes you a nerry christmas. me wishes you a merry christmas and a happy new year!!!!!!

Missed you girls so badly. Have the time of your lives today :D

84 FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats!!! Started using it?

84 what?!!! Reaaaally now. is it still ongoing?

84 uuuh...would it be a bad idea to tell you I agree with him? Besides your life hasn't even started yet. How do you know? And if there's something you don't like,abot yourself, change it...I did lately.

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I did too and knew you'd agree

Merry Christmas, girls!

Thank you to all who wished us a Merry Christmas!

@Malu Don't worry, I missed all the flash gifts, too. :)

80 @Rare: Careful though. What I'm worried about is you might be mistaking admiration for a character you like and the dedication of that person to something you like with actual feelings.
Some times we fall in love with the concept of a character (even if they are fiction) and spending time with a person who brings that character to life makes us blindly fall for them...When in reality we're falling for a concept or an idea.
I really hate being the boring person that says this, but...I know because it happened to me two years back. For those who don't know, I have a major thing for Seto Kaiba. Yup, the Yugioh character. I love his concept, his personality and his backstory. He puts all the characteristics that I love about any character in one and I believe that it was a shame he was a part of the Yugioh universe that didn't explore him as they should have. In fact, I would go so far to say that there's a part of me that wishes that my soul mate be like him. Strong, scarred, brilliant and very very very caring in his own way.
A couple years back, I came across a man who shared my thoughts of Seto. And he was one brilliant man. An amazing artist and an awesome writer. His fanfictions of Seto explored the character more than the actual series and they became very popular for that. I found myself having feelings for that writer. I never actually said anything about them since I tend to lock my feelings up. I did however talk to him a lot about his point of views, his stories and sometimes about writing. Just casual stuff. Later, I came to the realization that I didn't know him at all. I only knew that we had something in common and I combined that with his amazing personification of Seto in his fanfics. I never actually fell for him. My feelings were for his talent and Seto and not him...
What I mean to say is, just make sure your feelings are in the right place. I don't want you to regret anything later :)

@Malu: Val loved the gifts yesterday, but none of the other dollz at all. My main got most of these things, but I don't know what to use them for :D

@bloodsy: I caaaaaaan't help it :3

Anywhooooooo...A new day and a new beginning! I'm in love with the new WT song even though it was too different from what I expected. I cried my heart out yesterday watching Polar Express then several romantic eps and series :D

80 Having feelings for who a person is should be how we all fall in love.

How about this? What I usually did to test my feelings for someone is to take a break from meeting/talking and probably thinking about them. I did that for a month or so to see how I actually felt about them. Was I really in love with them? Was I admiring their talents and attributes? 99% of the time you get an accurate idea of your feelings. The only guy that passed that test for me is still the only one that I wonder 'what if' about after four years. It didn't work out since we were both too young to take on the responsibility and were too naiive in the eyes of our parents so we called it quits, but I can guarantee you that he was the only one I actually had feelings for.

More often than not, I come to realize that I was in love with a specific trait in someone and not them as a whole. Sometimes it's just my overly-emotional need for something pure and something amazing to love.

I have to admit that I fall in love with a person whose mind can surpass mine. More often than not, I find most guys to be...way too childish and immature for my taste. When I meet a person who's very intelligent and talented with something, it makes me fall for them...Sometimes without actually seeing if I like them as a whole or not.

Just try to find out what you really feel. If you can, do the test I told you about. You can even tell her, you're taking a break to deal with RL stuff. Find out if it's admiration, romantic feelings or just a feeling of comfort?

And we're here for you, right? :D

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80 You have one hella of RL Drama!!! Oh god! But you know what amazes me more? That you were able to understand what I wrote above! I reread it and boy is it ALL over the place. That's what you get when I haven't had my caffeine :D And nope I don't mean coffee. My caffeine is actually chocolate. What little it has makes me way too energetic. Too energetic that I am scared of trying coffee... That would be scary. :$

So your drama with that Jean-person is now solved? Out of curiosity (no need to answer that if you don't want to), who do you like more? The Jean-person or Levi-person? :D For some reason I am now actually picturing you as Mikasa in my head :D :D

How was Christmas btw? Or if you don't celebrate Christmas, your holidays?

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80.

There's no doubt about it, Jean is like my other half. If I believed in love, I'm certain this is what it would be. I don't view her on a romantic level, but the same intensity... Do you understand what I mean? The question is though, by how much do I like Jean more than Levu...

Haha, well I do have the hair and muscles to pass as her. Unfortunately, I'm not Japanese.

Yeah, it was okay. My family were being colossal punk ass beaches, so I had dinner with my dad's friend's family.