I've tried, but I still feel the same way. I know we're designed to tell others our feelings, but that's not how I am.

First notes:
>If you really don't want people who might tell people you know about it:
1.) Google: "Website where you can vent to strangers."
Just, try. Try letting some out.
>If you feel like having a one-on-one thing could be better
1.) Try a councilor. I actually had a first experience with counseling just two days ago and it really helped. It made me realize what problems really stood out.

If nothing you can find helps, look for an expert. Tell people. Especially your parents. Don't give up if they dismiss it. Make them take you to an expert.

So let me get this straight...

You've "always" had this kind of behaviour regarding your feelings, right?
It is not strange for you to have these attacks, right?
The last hard one was 3 months ago, right?
Usually every 5 weeks you have one, right?
It's been over 6 weeks since you last had one, right?
You recently changed schools, right?
It doesn't seem like any outer factor is provoquing it, right?

I'm thinking you're seeing this the wrong way... What if instead of being worried, you should be relieved?

Well... This anxiety you're feeling over those... attacks... Is it possible that you are feeling anxious about them because it has not happened yet?
Lets see, you said you usually have one every 5 weeks. Now that you see it's a bit "late", you get anxious about it. Is that possible? Do you think this might be correct?

Also. I know most people get stressed when they have a change, especially related to family or school and, recently, you've changed to a new school. I'm thinking you're reacting differently. Whilst most people get stressed about it, you're actually comfortable about that change. Could it be that this comfortable change easened your attacks? You know, if the change is really good, it might result in benefits for the person; in this case, you changing schools resulted in more time between attacks or even their end. Is it possible?

About your feelings, I'm a bit like that. I was always that kind of child that believed to be the one and only shoulder. Even now, I feel like I am the one single support to those who are the closest to me and, because of that, I was never the kind of person to explode. Let me tell you, I even learned how to sneeze mute and how to stop the cough just so I wouldn't interrupt class nor anything: even in class I believed I had to be the support and example. (bad choice though, I now have extremely sensitive nose veins and I have regular nosebleeds.. I don't even have to look at.. naughty stuff xD)

Though, recently, I've noticed I've started to explode on a certain person that I consider one of my actual best friends. They are basically my mother for many reasons and this girl I met on 10th grade. And it's on that girl I mostly explode... I don't even know, I just.. Sometimes she notices I've got too much in and she pulls me and pulls me and pulls me until the button is pressed and I explode.

There are other ways, as xemo suggested, talking to a stranger helps a lot. I have explained this on Elfie's topic but basically, if you think that that stranger is just that: a stranger, that you don't know, they don't know you, then you basically have a walking treasure box lost somewhere. UH! You're basically like those pirates that hide their gold somewhere, you know? But you don't even know where the gold is!
Your feelings are the gold.
You're the pirate.
The stranger is the treasure box.
You fill the treasure box with the gold (you tell the stranger your feelings) and hide it somewhere to never be found (and they are a stranger and you dont know who they are nor where they live).
As far as you know, it might be your neighbour but you don't know and neither does your neighbour.

Omegle's a nice place because you can also laugh a lot. There was one that was talking about how sad he was, how his best friend was retarded, his boss was a bad person and all... And then he asked "Do you know the worse part?" and the stranger said something totally logical that I do not recall now... And the person answered "No. I live on the bottom of the ocean!"
So yeah, the person was playing Sponge Bob. Besides you being able to let out, there will be a troll soul that will listen and then make you laugh like that.

Just try and let it out.
Pee helps too.
It relaxes.
A lot.
Yup.

xemoxrockerx wrote:

Yes people have free services to listen to other people!
My friend goes on one of those sites as a listener and he listened/chatted to a stranger who told him about his Peanut Butter and Jelly addiction for hours!!
Seriously!
So, I'm sure there's a stranger out there willing to listen at least :)

OMG PERFECT! Where is that like button?!

darkjewels wrote:

try silent screaming. force your muscles as if you were going to scream, but without making a sound. or close the room's door(so people don't see and don't think you went crazy) and pretend you are punching and kicking and sword cutting and shooting a bunch of random invisible creatures(or politicians or criminals).

Done with you people

try grabbing some color pencils, some paper and MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! and CRAZY SCREAMS and RANDOM STUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!
then just grab the paper, make a paper ball by smashing it with all of your strength and BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURN it. or instead just rip it and rip it and put it in a water bowl until the next day mix some glue and make some odd random shapes and break it into pieces and then trow it away.
or paint it.

I've tried it before and it seems to help, so I'll get on it! :)