First off ILove, I have missed seeing your posts everywhere! How can we ever hate you, you cutie?!
Second, you need to take a breather. Look at the Puerto Rico trip as a chance to just relax and get some bearings of yourself. Look at it as a chance to free your mind and letting go. Whenever you start to feel like you're panicking about the trip, remember why you loved going there in the first place! It will help, trust me.

I know that the prospect of having no future (like me), getting no job (like me), conflicted about the right college, and the easy one (like me) is really hard to cope with. But you know what I did about most of them?
No Future: I found what I love to do, and figured out how I can keep doing it, with making less of a sacrifice. I want to be a publisher/writer. But right now, or in the future, that won't bring me much money, so I figured that if I get a doctorate in Eng Lit, I could be the head of the English Department at a High School, editing books for local educational ones, and still work on my novels. That way, I won't be in so much trouble if my book doesn't make it to the shelves.
Getting no job: still working on it.
Conflict with colleges: Oh boy, you landed on a minefield with this one. There is no easy option here, so you need to either make a compromise, or a sacrifice. Are you willing to go all the way to be a professional photographer, or do you think you can just get by by taking the easy way? Nothing comes without a price, dear. I know this more than anything.

No car: I'm gonna be 19 in a few weeks, and I don't even have a driver's permit! But I guess, to get over your fear, you need to start small. start virtual driving!


Just don't stay holed up in your house, ILove. You need to get out, and get busy living. Go hiking with some friends, or camping. Just, get out of the house, or you might end up like me, a loner, someone who's afraid of social interactions, an agoraphobic, someone who has S.A.D.

bloodyemos wrote:

Women, how can we hate you? That's a very odd thing to say because we all love and miss you very much. Don't you ever think that we could possibly hate you <3

On the depression: I know the feeling. Mine was wanting to kick in last night and last thursday. My cure was to do something productive and social interaction really does help. Call your friends up and have them come over or get your parents to take you to town. It's a possibility. Social interaction will help though.

I have to agree...WOMAN!...LISTEN TO ME!...We LOVE you, capiche? If anything we miss you...badly. I was just thinking about you last Saturday. You should give us your email!

For depression, while I don't think I am a good model, I find that when I'm busier, but not under stress, that tends to shy away. Maybe try to do something? Charity? If you can't leave home that much, maybe try to engage in a useful online activity? Maybe...uh...make videos for seomthing you know how to do?

*Bonk to your head* How can you even think to say that. We wuv you. You're our ohana. Ohana means family. And family means nobody gets left behind OR FORGOTTEN

You're being paranoid you need to sit down and chill. You are going to be fine. I'm talking about your Puerto Rico trip. If you think something bad is going to happen, then it'll happen. I used to be like that all the time. Just take it easy and you'll be fine. Also, if you really are that worried about your camera, I suggest going on craigslist and getting a cheaper one that you can take anywhere without a care in the world.

Driving - Can't say anything cuz my mom won't let me drive >.> With the way things are...she probably wont let me ge my permit till I graduate from college.

You're a junior or a senior? I forgot >.< Anyhow College/job...Go take a look at scholarships[dotcom]. They have paid internships and stuff that you can look through. Most of them need a college degree though...or one year experience. Why not start at a community college?

Sweetie, sweetie, sweetiesweetiesweetie.

Now, I may not be as much of a close friend as everyone else but you're part of OMD and you have a special place in my heart.

Relaaax. You're smart as all heck, you'll pass!

Be cautious but have FUN on your trip!! It's your favorite place with your momma and your camera!

Everyone's afraid of starting to drive, I promise you're not alone, but if someone like my idiotic 14-year old sort of friend can park a dang car you can drive one.