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Sure might've worked for them. I'll let you know how that goes when I cry in my bed at night missing him because I can tell you, nothing will not make that happen. When I know he can die any day he's away. When I know I cannot receive calls when I need them most. That I cannot comfort him and he cannot comfort me. There are differences in each relationship. I am not one that handles distance very well. My chest hurts. I can't breathe. I haven't stopped crying for a week. The littlest things, like a song, make me break down and it will not stop there. So even when I do get on with my life while he's away, I will never agree that it is best for us. We would've managed the other way. Darky, not every couple is a statistic, especially one you don't know personally anymore. But I will not stop his dream and I will wait and I will try to keep myself distracted as best as possible.
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Edit: I'm sorry. Just don't tell me it's what best. It's what's best for him. This is far from what's best for me but I respect his choice and am proud of him. But I've cried all week not for the years we'll continue to be away but the very thought that he will come home to me in a casket with a flagged draped over it and somebody else telling me he was a hero. I can't lose him. I don't want him to be a hero. I want him to be alive and with me. That guarantee disappears the day he enlisted. He no longer belonged to me. He went and married the marines. I'm not very military minded and I have respect but if he died and somebody told me he was a hero I'll have it in me to curse them out. I am not military minded. I did not grow up that way and do not like any bit of it.
Last edited by bloodyemos (2015-11-11 02:47:46)
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Twin, I know I won't be able to tell you that it's for the best, or that you'll learn to love it because you don't see it that way. But what if you consider just a little hope that he won't be chosen to go first?
From experience, (of which I only have a little because the last time was when I was 5ish), my dad fought in the Lebanese Civil War, Desert Storm and Afghanistan -and those are the ones I know of, there could be more- And he's come back alive. Granted he now has a metal bone up his arm, but he came back.
Yes it's hard. Yes you're going to be scared, and yes you're going to be sad, yes you're still going to be proud of him cuz you love him, and yes you're going to hate the person who has to bring you that dreaded news IF he ever dies there fighting for you.
But even so, you're also showing him how much he means to you by being by his side, by crying when he's not with you, by missing him every single moment you can't see him, by supporting him even though you don't want him to go through with it. It means you love him.
I wish there was someway I can make you feel better, but I can't I don't have that ability. But what you can do is look on the brighter side, that he is not out there fighting at this very moment in a war thousands of miles away from you.
There is another brighter side to this. So far, all the troop are coming back home and not many are willing to support another war.
83 Angel pretty much said everything I was trying to say. And bueatifully too :)
I know it hurts, but hope will make you and him feel better :) I just want you to be happy.
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No Darky. You were telling me this was what's best for us. What Angel outlined was the hope with this being the predicament we're in. And I know all this and I'm still upset and trying to get over myself with it. I've never cared this much about a person before. So forgive me for the fact that I can play on a game much where it requires me to be happier than I am right now.
Last edited by bloodyemos (2015-11-11 13:56:10)
83 You don't need to play or anything. We just want you to feel better...
Sorry I didn't elaborate better. What I meant is many times things turn out a lot better than you think. Some times when you look back you realize that certain things were for the best. So you just need to keep hope.
It's okay to cry. It's okay to hurt. It's natural. Just always keep hope.
I think I'm not helping much with my lack of elaborating. I'll just stay quiet for now. I am so so so sorry for not being of help.
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Twin, please don't think you have to be happy to be on here, because you don't. But I want you to know that each of here are here for you. We may not be related by blood but I do treat you like my sister, and I'd hate to see you suffer. I want to make you feel better and so does darky. We both want to see you happy. You deserve it.
I know it'll be hard but you have to at least try to see the better side of this because you're going to hurt yourself so much if you don't.
I can only tell you what I'be experienced and early can only tell you what she experienced. I wish we could do more but that's just wishing
85 I am working on the W|A I promised bloodsy eons ago. Yeah yeah. I was working on one and really hated it midway so I'm coming with new ones that would not only fit Halloween but all year long too.
Why am I so ... uncreative these days?
84? Wait which side am I on again?
And also.. 10 pages.. New part guys?
85 MALU!!!!!!!!!!!!! MISSED YOU!!! CRUSHING HUG!
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Well youre going up so Im going down.
DAAAAAARRRKKYYYYYY!! I missed you too!!!
Ahh. I missed this place so much!
I am officially done with my O levels. :D
I dont really have internet yet but when I do, Ill be here more often.
Theres a separate place for the magazine now! Awesome.
Last edited by malu (2015-12-03 17:48:13)
85 Yup! I'm part of the Gazette crew now sooooo I requested it in the suggestions section yesterday as well as a separate section for RPs and they've already started moving everything!
Congrats on the O-Level!! Let me see if I remember how this works. The O-Level is what leads to high school?
We miss you so much every time you and Amary leave
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Cool new sections are cool <3 and I see they are looking for new mods as well
Now I only wish we were allowed to have animated signatures <3
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I'm applying for the moderator position tonight!! I fit the requirements well enough ^_^
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Good luck Bloody :)
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Good luck twin! I applied as well, I hope darky's applying too, I think she kinda needs to be a mod what with her a part of the gazette team. Actually, ever since Darky's been putting the gazette posts, I was thinking of asking coco to be the mod. But I know it doesn't work like that so I never got around to it...And then she made the post and just wow.
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Well we don't know how many they're looking to add! Especially since several of the old ones are now very inactive.
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You and Darky would definitely be more likely to get it and hope you do! You both deserve it!
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Heh? No, you too!! You came here from the old site, didn't you?
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Yeah I was on MDD for a little more than a year when it got shut down
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There, you've been on longer and thus know more things than I do :3
Mortal Instruments?
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Oh I'm trying to figure out where to go.
And maybe. But I wasn't on here the first year. This wasn't made immediately after MDD got shut down. I tried for a year before finding here. I was on Ponystars originally for years until they changed it up. Now I don't like it. But I found that before MDD.
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I was on PS as well, I actually remember you on the boards ^^ I wish I could go back to it but I really don't like it anymore either.
Where to go in character terms or lost the page?
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My memories not that great lol but I hates the change up. Too much work. Forced to buy feez.
Character lol bc the pages so have no changed XD
I do like the 2 new section additions!
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Yes! The sections really make it easier. Especially since we had like 5 contests at once ^^